i just don't love you no more..

thanx cheng for all the songs u sent to me. u rock. =)

i went shopping that day and tried on practicaly all the skirts available in pure milk and ended up buying none of them. =x. heh, bet that girl was kind of pissed, but those skirts really were so long. makes me look fat, just saying that i am NOT okay. but at least i bought a top, brown, sweet-- me.
on top of that bought blossomz skirt plus got a free shirt. coolness. so yeah i am glad. moods are rather high.

tightened my braces. pain. but i'm stil eating. plus i think i gained a little teeny weeny bit of weight based on the stupid weighing scale. no fair. -pouts-

my butt is aching! cant find a way to stretch the muscle there so its really irritating.

currently waiting for the countdown on power 98 to reach no. 1. hits are not bad so far but, still don't have the song i wanna listen to.

blogging is so taxing. i wasnt tired at first but after typing a few lines i feel so tired. haha. i still have chemistry to finish studying, comtemplating whether practising tys questions right now is worth it. because i have a yearning to watch vcd. watching this hong kong serial about hairstylists and all, quite nice. yeahh i know, hong kong serial right? but come on, its realy not bad you know.

hmm just a little note to someone. maybe u feel that home isnt a place for you anymore, but there's no other place that truly makes you belong. so however pissed u are with the situation at home, always remember that parents still love you no matter how much they scold u. i kinda understand a bit of the situation lar, though not completely. but i'll be there to listen to ur complains. including the vulgarities!! haha..

get your heels on ;

n im so sick of love songs..

tightened my braces today, not the most exciting thing of the century but my dentist says that my teeth will be all aligned by tmr. yayness. despite the fact that ppl say i look cuter with messy teeth but, nah, straight teeth is definitely a better choice.

oh man the hits on 98 suck today.

match yesterday rocked a little, probably cuz we won quite easily. but then again, getting hit by ppl is inevitable for me yet again. but oh wells, part of the game. nothing particularly interested about the match, kinda like routine stuff u do every match so yeah. but the bus ride back was the worst time man. stupid juniors keep bullying me, throwing my tigger around and saying my NOSE is BIG! it is NOT trueee!!!!! my angel nv help me, si ba zhang nv help me, twin was sleeping, all the sisters turned against poor me. =( n even stupid pear! stupid nana, i wun forget what u did okay, still try to act innocent. so in the end i didnt get to slp on the bus. =( i shall not get bullied at training tmr.

digital fortress is not a bad pick. hoping to read finish by this weekend, wanna see how the story falls in place. might do a summary thing here after i read, this is to improve english. hAHAH! im like such a nerd. i actually follow wad naggy chew says, do a review on books that u read. haha. okay den, i'll be off to savour the contents. slurpp..

get your heels on ;

im soo bored. liberate me from this boredom someone.

chocx.. <3

doesnt anybody come to my blog now?

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why must we learn chinese? just cant seem to find any meaning in learning it. i totally suck at it leh. pretty worried bout the o levels. at first i tot passing hcl would be not as hard but now come to think about it, its really not easy to even pass and i so totally do NOT wanna study chinese in jc. that would make life even sad. right? and it doesnt really help that i happen to have the lousiest chinese teacher in the entire world which by the way tells us that the only way to improve our standard is to improve our standard by ourselves. i mean like come on, he has to start moving and do something to salvage this wreck that he made! the wreck happens to be me just to let u know.

my bill just came. 1004 msg. thats something gd and something bad. the gd thing is that its not as bad as i thought it would be? but the bad thing is that i've to fork out some money to pay the outstanding bills. my call time was lik 900 mins?! but it was mostly incoming minutes. but like 900 mins? thats rather cool. i've nv gotten to 900 mins b4. =)

there's a match against zhonghua tmr. i cant say that im excited or anything about it as much as i want to. cant find any reason to be excited about it and i haf no idea why! maybe because i'll be going to the match with a YELLOW towel. that happens to be our team towel man. and why yellow? why not like green or purple? something less ahem, attention seeking? =Pp. i noe nana is so gona kill me when she reads this. -hides-

thats all for today.

+ turned off by the very sick idea. +

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some ppl v copy cat lehhh..

i dun wan do homework!!! i haf 6 more hrs b4 going to sch. deciding whether i shld even slp today. just finished maths which is not bad, but my ss is realli half-studied only. i summarized the first chap in 3 lines. thats stupid cuz tmr is structured essay which im so sure im gona flunk real bad. lord please help me.

faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. amen amen.

i haf faith i haf faith, tmr wun fail tmr wun fail. ahhh..

geraldine really rocks, listened to her jie tuo the whole nite le.. swoons.

i'm hungry again. =x. i just had cereals but it really sucks, dun taste nice. wanna change brand.

chocs anyone?

sorry sf, i totally forgot bout u leh. i tot u'll come online den i explain to u buden u nv come and i was too occupied pia-ing ss and homework. but at least u did ask others for help. promise next time i'll help u! =) swit dreams.

time to chiong zhuo wen. my chinese ROCKS! thanx..

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i meant to update yesterday but was too tired. anyway yesterday was 4a's gathering at xt's house, but well i shAll not comment on the whole event. hehe. btw, xt's bro's bed was rather comfy. smiles.

tmr sch is starting already, aww that truly sucks to the core. i've tests which are unstudied, hw undone, things undone. i'm SUPPOSED to be grounded and spend time to finish all the work. however, i've just been spending the grounded time chatting online and blogging. other than that would have to be basketball, so wells, this concludes my ENTIRE march hols, the supposedly most relaxing hols. in june, it'll be full fledged studying and burying my head in bookSS. so well, i guess its over and no point mulling over my stupidity of pushing homework to the last day AGAIN. its supposed to be a routine hol thing that i stay home on the last day of hols to finish up whatever i work i pushed back.

i kinda wanna eat chocs now, finished all those edible in my room, except for the ones nana gave. that has to be SLOWLy eaten. expensive chocs heh. supply of sweets running out too. boo ness. im sucha pig huh. oh ya and i just realized that i'm still as fair as ever. my tanning DID not work, i gotta go tan again someday. yes n i shall change my toe nail polish colour as it was commented to be an AH MA's colour. fine.

my day has been tiring enough as it is and now i've to go study for tmr's test plus do the hw which i did not complete on fri? hehe yeps.

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i just came back from tanning myself downstairs at my pool. phew finally i'm a LITTLE tanner and look less sickly. ya i noe, its weird. i cant attend training but i can go tanning. well u see last nite i went to bed at 9pm in hope to get enough slp so that i could train AND tan myself today. however i ended up turning in bed the WHOLE nite and i really mean the whole nite. i haf no idea why i couldnt slp either but soon twas 4am that i got up and read memoirs of a geisha. i read it till 5am? den i tried to slp AGAIN. but i just couldnt. by then i was exhausted and totally drained of energy. my head was damn pain and i continued to lie on the bed till 8am? den i msg-ed ling to tell her that i cant attend training. not in that kinda state. uh uh no way. i lied on the bed till about 9am and thats probably the time when i fell asleep. my mum on the aircon for me and i could slp. grrr if only i had tried that earlier. but i guess the whole thing happened because of my over obsession with math tuition yesterday. i stayed extra time to do more math and this is wad happens. thats just a guess only.

anyways. YES i do look tanner now that i look carefully at my arm. my wish for the hols is fulfilled i can finally do my work in PEACE. hehe. i do hope i can go for tmr's 4a gathering at xt's hse. though going thr would be nothing new anymore but kinda the only time that i can hang out with people besides bballers. =) so yea, im gona try to persuade her? and so im gona be a gd lil gal and do my work tonite.

aim: finish all chem tuition hw tonite + do finish my sch math hw by tonite too.

therefore i can conclude that i would only haf chinese compo and chemistry worksheets left to do. thats very gd. jia you amelia! u can do it! -hyper-

nanny mcphee! i wan watch! argh but thats something quite impossible.

okay time to do work. =P

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tmr class outing to escape!!! yayy!! im so excited bout it becuz.. i CANT GO! haii i know my posts these days are getting rather naggy becuz everyday im complaining about the stuff dat i'm disallowed to do. but. really feel so left out. just because i did something wrong and this is the price i've to pay. i promised tingx last week that i could accompany her to wild wild wet. oh wait is that my mum calling? hold on. okay. anyway just feel bad that i broke my promise. sorry tingx.

i kinda realise that i've not been spending time with the 2gers recently and probably only talk to sek and all. i also duno why i feel so apart from the rest, just cant seem to fit into the group anymore. realize that i'd rather spend time alone and all, i dun understand why either. hai this is a bad sign. well nvm, bottom line is that everyone should enjoy themselves tmr, enjoy ur damn freedom. wth. this feeling sucks lah.

today after training i was metaphorically speaking lugged back home by my mum. hate it u noe. im like a kid. sent to classes den after class my mum will come on time to pick me home. i cant even get to shoot abit more or just hang out. may seem like a small thing, but well, its something i can hardly do. its like im ALWAYS scheduled for something, tuition, lunch and the likes of it. some ppl think it's really cool to be all catered for, well there are pros and cons. so anyone wanna trade? just for a week and i'll stil be happier than i am now.

yuan lai wo zhi shi tu ran lei le..

i ought to be contented, thats what pastor preached last sun.

zhi zu.

trying.

failing.

bought makeup today. thats probably the only upside of today. that i actually bought something. plus one more thing is that i sent my phone in for repair. sigh.

chemistry. currently killing me. i'll try to get some meaning into it. later.

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haii feel damn sucky now. recently its been a downhill for me. im really sucha overprotected kid. i'm being restricted on the friends i make, the books i read, the music i listen to, the language i speak. i mean, im considered only half a human this way aint i?

i dun appreciated being hurt by wad my dad says. i cant even dribble the ball properly, ya so wad? its my problem. its true, im not as skilled in sports as my dad but at least my attitude is right, i dun skip training for nothing unlike what my parents always ask me to do. and ultimately its the development of my character from training that truly matters and the skills i acquire from training are secondary. so whats the big deal? true, i cant dribble the damn ball but u noe what? at least i do try to play my best despite the fact that my physique is totally not suitable for bball. i dont have to be constantly reminded at how i suck at bball, instead i need some encouragement of some sort. if u dun haf any den buzz off my life man. i live it well on my own, without ur stupid critisismSS.

i'll blog back later.. besides, i'll be home the whole day. wth.

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darn it.. lost the finals.but feel the pressure, we're gona bounce right baq. bounce baq higher den u can ever imagine. this we promise. ur in for a tougher fight the next time we meet.

results weren't so bad. but im grounded. i've been a bitch. i deserve whatever im reaping now and i hope never to make such a mistake again. gota use the hols to repay for my "debts". well who's to say whats fair or unfair, i just know that i've been such a bitch.

overprotected.thats so true in my case.
"anyway how often will you get to go out now?"
this is so true mum. thanx shit loads. thanx for making my life miserable. i'm supposed to wake up and be more sensible and understand that she means well but i just cant. i haf such an overprotected life which makes it miserable. i'm just a gal with no life. one that's gona be stuck home for many days. for this, i swear i'll nv forget this -- i have a sad and miserable life, at least for this week.

stab me hard. i nid the pain to feel alive.

get your heels on ;

darn it bungs..

get your heels on ;